nonexistant

5:09 am on Monday, April 19th, 2004

Lots of things have been nonexistant lately — my work ethic, for one. The junior year is indeed hellish. The only recent victory was going to prom, which was really a good thing for me, surprisingly. I have killed insecurity with a large stick! I fully expect it to zombify, but nonetheless, prom was a good idea. There was, however, an unfortunate side effect. I am now inexplicably attracted to the awful music of the day: Usher, Beyonce, and their ilk. I am ashamed. It’s just that downloading is so easy! It’s true: instant gratification is in fact the death of virtue.

I bet if I wrote more I’d feel less pressured to write well. This is not a new conclusion, but apparently not one I can internalize.

In two days I debate about the relative merits of Janet Jackson, Britney Spears, etc. And to think — last week it was tradable fishing quotas. It’s some downward spiral.

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